This week.. probably thurs , I'm gonna meet mxz to take back my webcam.. n i might just pass him all his stuff.. n don't ever see him again (if it's possible)
For some strange reason, I feel kinda scared. I have no idea what I'm afraid of, well..why should I..when I did nothing wrong in the first place? But I figured.. perhaps I'm afraid that I might accidentally reveal some kinda emotions that I didn't mean to show? Like.. sadness? I don't want my emotions to betray me. I wanna be cool and pretend like I didnt give a damn. Actually I'm so scared to see his reaction. What if his reaction totally took me off guard? N I end up doing things not according to my plan?
I don't think I have anymore feelings for him. I guess I'm still on ANGER/EVIL mode. I just wanna win I guess.