slap of reality

i don't know what i did wrong to deserve this.
i'm not even asking him to give me anything in return.. but how can he be so cruel to me? i treated him so well.. but all i got in return was a painful slap of reality.
what others see or think, i don't really care. i only care about what matters to me.
anyway this world is like f--k. i wish the best of everyone, but the feeling is not always mutual. someone i labeled as 'a good friend' gave me a "haha" when i told her about the break-up. what has the world become? i'm so utterly disappointed.
the effort u put into anything, be it relationship or friendship, sometimes just doesn't turn out the way u want. so never have any expectation.. expectation only gives you more disappointment.
now i really wonder what's the point of being good to everyone? when you are nice to them, they simply take you for granted.. like it's your duty to serve them.
at least now, i know who is true to me, and who is apparently not.
i see their true colours n ugly personalities.
sometimes i wish i would never have to go back there again.. that part of the universe, is like the dark side.. n currently now, i'm in a safe and protected zone, where all the angels are surrounding me. but when i go back, i'll be all alone to face the devils n demons. maybe i should just stop seeing them. if they don't treat me like a proper friend, then why should i?
i'll just be nice to those who are nice to me.