i wish

Today is one of those days when I'm feeling pretty down for no particular reason.
It's sem break.. but I'm not even excited.
I have less than 10 friends here in the entire melbourne. My parents, sisters, brothers, nephews, friends are all not here. How pathetic.
So now I know what's so tough about being miles away from home.. It's when you are feeling crappy, feel like pouring out your frustrations and unhappiness.. but only to realize that there's no one here who can actually listen to you.
I feel like I'm putting a mask on everyday.. even if I'm sad, I have to smile. Even if I'm angry, I have to remain calm.
How I wish I can fill a box with everyone and fedex them over.