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I hate this feeling..
The fear, the lack of confidence seems to obstruct everything in front of me.
I'm afraid of failures. I can't bear to see myself fall.
But somehow the thought of giving up seems to cross my mind very often lately.
Giving up is an easy way out. But success is never easy.
So if I give up, what do I get? .. Failure.
If I try, what do I get? ... 50/50 chance of success/failure
If I try but fail, what do I get? ... scolding..sadness, fear.. lessons learnt.. then what else?
If I try and succeed? .. good.. brighter future..

Haiz... I don't wanna fail my business!!

I think I'm emotionally imbalance.

I have nothing here.. except freedom. how sad.
So much freedom. but what can i do with it?
the word is 'kong xu'...empty empty empty.......
I miss my family n friends in sg. but i like the freedom i get here. if i can combine both together.. that'll be GREAT! but no, i can't.
Now you know why I keep asking you all to come n visit me. Hahaha.

I'm clumsy these days..
kept cutting myself by accident.
first.. cut my finger by the can lid when opening a can.
second... cut my finger by the paper when flipping my textbook.
stupid.....