enough

i'm just being myself. i don't need the whole world to agree with me. you have every right to disagree. i can't be bothered to convince you, cos it's really beyond my control, it's up to you. i'm sick of compromising. i don't have to live up to anyone's expectations. i just wanna be in control of my own life. there is no definite answer in life, everyone handles things differently. that's what makes each of us unique and distinctive. so don't impose your ideas on me. your ideas might be applicable in your context, but not mine. i'm not a kid, i can think and decide on my own. at least i'm being truthful to myself. i trust my instincts and follow my heart. i do what i want and i don't want to care about what others may think. i may seem weak, but at least i know when i fall, i am able to stand up by myself and don't need a rebound. yes, i admit i'm afraid. i'm afraid to put my trust in people which might give them the power to inflict pain on me. i don't wanna look dumb in front of so many jerks out there. one is more than enough. i've been trying very hard to recover. but circumstances didn't allow me to. so the only thing i could do, is to choose what i want to see and perceive things the way i want to. so don't tell me what to do, cos i don't think i will listen to you anyway. let me experience it first and i'll draw my own conclusion.