物是人非

it was a terrible feeling. i had the urge to leave melbourne right away.
why do i always see him? and even if i don't see him, there are things that will remind me of him. why does this feeling keeps coming back to haunt me?

i moved house not long ago. i was kinda glad at first. cos i thought that it would be better that i live far away from the city..so that i can keep a distance from him.
but guess what? the buses that i take to uni every morning will pass by his school. everyday when i see collingwood college, i will think of him. sometimes i feel that life's making a fool out of me.

and just now.. i was walking along bourke st. as i walked, i was looking at a bunch of gals standing at the tram track taking pics. and one of them caught my eye. she looked so familiar and i thought to myself 'this gal looks like his gf'. n when i turned my head further, i saw him looking at my direction. i turned around immediately and walked off. i was wondering if he saw me.. cos he was standing at the opposite side of the street, quite far away from me.

when i got home, i went online and saw that he changed his status to 物是人非. i didnt understand it at first, so i googled.. and i saw this definition of 物是人非: 随着时间的推移，情况发生变化。东西还是原来的东西，可是人已不是原来的人了。所有的事物景物都没有变，只是人却不在了。看这眼前的情景（冷清），对比过去（美好），让人产生一种睹物思人，触景伤情的忧伤。 (as time passes, there are changes. everything stays the same; but the person is not the same anymore)

so... i guess.... he saw me.

for once, i think i'm cool. at least now i know im not always the one who gets affected. i don't feel that bad about myself anymore. 现在就轮到我转身离开了