over.. yeah!

HAHAHA.. my module (design n business strategy) for winter sem is over! i think our group did pretty good. i like the look of our business plan. thanks to laura for putting everything together.
not sure if the lecturer likes our idea though. but well.. at least i got this module done n over with!! Now i can enjoy my 1 week break without worries!! hahah.

my internet at home is down again -.- apparently, the router is faulty. so victor sent it for fixing. so i won't have internet for 2-3 weeks -.-
i'm in school now.. staying back to use the internet. hahaha. how obsessed. but anyway if i go home straight away, i cant do anything either. helen, bill n xiao zhou are not at home -.- so bored.
btw, i lose interest in fb. kinda inactive already. haha.

i am so hungry. i realized i forgot my lunch. my stomach kept grumbling just now. hahaha.

i wanna go shopping!! but not much money now =.- hope my dad quickly transfers money to me. I was thinking of taking up part-time job for more $$.. but.. i'm very reluctant. cos i don't like to work. hahaha.

i need to tidy my room later. it's in a huge mess!! i want my room to be tidy n organised before sem 2 starts.

btw, effie went back to sg already. i keep having the feeling that she's still staying at glenferrie. hahaa.

ok gtg. will update whenever i've got internet access.

take care everyone!!! :))

neoprints

many many neoprints!!

love yourself

you can turn black into white
you can turn lies into realities
you can make the whole world believe in you
you can do whatever you want to make yourself feel better
cos at the end of it, you are just making a fool out of yourself

love yourself and you will be loved

don't care

Reality slapped me.
Suddenly I realized this world ain't as beautiful as i thought.
Maybe I was ignorant and naive.

Now I know I can trust no one but myself.
The whole world can turn their backs at me, they can bad- mouth or backstab me.. they can do whatever they like.. I don't want to care anymore.

I'm so tired.. tired of thinking what others may think.
I know I'm not the nicest person on earth. But at least I know I didn't do anything against my conscience.

Everyone makes mistakes. I try not to judge others so quickly, so don't do that to me.
You don't understand me, you don't know me, so you are in no position to judge me.

Now I'll just do everything the way I want it . I don't want to care about what others may think.. cos it's too tedious. As long as I know I did nothing wrong, I don't have to give the whole world an explanation.

You may think I have motives. You may think I'm a bitch. You know what? I don't give a damn.

Anyway, every single thing I do now, you'll have an opinion. So it really doesn't matter anymore. I don't owe you anything anyway.

I don't see why I have to stop doing something because you don't like it. I don't want to be controlled by anyone. I stand firm on my ground. Do whatever you want, say whatever you like.. just don't let me know, cos I don't want to know.

Live your own life. Don't mess with me.

don't understand

Haha.. helen and me.. zi pai again!!! :D







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Sometimes I don't understand myself.
What do I really want?
It's just weird. Everything's happening too fast.
How ambiguous.. Now I'm there again.
I'm always stuck in between.. neither here nor there.
I think there must be something wrong with me.
I exist, but I don't.
Playing with fire.. but I don't wanna burn my fingers

at last!

Wahahahah.. At LAST!!!!!!! I have internet at home!!!

OMG. Kelly.. Your webcam damn power! haha. just now i kept zi pai-ing.. hahahah.

see..





not bad right. hahahha.

Anyway, heard u all have received my postcards!!! hahah. a pleasant surprise eh? hahah. hope u all like it :)

I have many neoprints now..will upload them soon! hah.

fast

Hey ppl! I'm in school now.
My internet at home is down -.-
Omg. Now i realise i havent been blogging for so many many days! haha.
I almost forgot what i did for the past weeks. hahaha.
Everytime I go for class, my classmates always ask me what i did during the weekends. and i will be like "ehh.. i forgot.." hahahha.

Well, alot of things happened in the past 3 weeks.
I met many new people.. and everything moved so fast that it felt as though I've known them for uber long...

Hmm.. there are so many things I wanna say.. but I don't know how to put them in words. Let me think through it.. and I'll update again.

I'm suppose to be doing work in school.. why am i blogging?? Hahah..Ok gtg! take care!!

BACK!!

hey ppl! I'm back!! Btw, I got back my laptop!! Hurray!! Hahaha..

Well, past few days were kinda fun! Bill's friends (Evan, Avril, Xiaozhou) came over to our house 3 days straight.. and we played poker, had steamboat, guo wang you xi, watched horror movie etc.. we hardly had any sleep. LOL.. super tiring! haha. And there's a little drama in the middle.. nothing great.. but i think we'll all learn something from it.

And just now Bill and Xiaozhou (he's temporarily staying at our place at the moment) went to play basketball.. and cos i was so bored,i tagged along. Helen didnt go cos she had to work. When we came back.. We played with webcam!!!! HAHAHAHA.. (kelly, i really like your webcam man! it takes good pictures!!!haha)


Helen & me (I'm eating tim tam cookie!)




Helen looks pretty here!




Helen


Bill ( Da B Ge'r)




Xiaozhou (This looks like an ad!)













Actually I have more pics.. but some are too crazy!! so not gonna post them up. HAHA..

Oh yea.. Bill might be moving out with Xiaozhou soon. Sigh.. then we don't have playmates at home already.. will be real boring =.=

strange dream

The weather is freezing cold. ...

I took a long nap just now.
had a pretty random dream.

dreamt of nyp. dreamt of everyone in school.. dreamt of kelly taking things from locker and my chinese painting stuff were in there. dreamt of ppl spreading a rumour about mok and his job at carrefour.. but eventually, the rumour was cleared.. cos apparently, it wasnt mok having a problem at carrefour, but it's jx. (!!??? so weird.. when did jx ever work in carrefour?) then there's laoda in studio.. n i think there's sth to do with ms also, cant really recall. Then someone organised a gathering at a big apartment.... but only 03 ppl were there. I also dreamt of my sister.. she said she brought her friends over to our house in the evening.. but all the while, i was in the house, but i didnt see her. hahaha..

omg. so strange right? LOL.. but quite funny la.. hahaha

btw, earlier in the afternoon, i went to a korean salon to dye and cut my hair. The whole environment made me feel like i was in a korean drama setting. Hahah. well, the hair stylist's good.. he coloured my hair.. but in the end, the colour appeared to be darker than expected. So he offered to help me redye without charging any extra cent. So nice!! haha. i'll go back to that salon next time!! hahaha. ok. gotta hop onto bed now! tata!!

fat n randoms

omg. i'm so fat.. but i cant stop eating!!!!!!!
my diet, my sleep cycle.. everything's so screwed up!
i ate only 2 meals a day.. but i don't feel like i've lost any weight. haha.
i should really control my diet. no matter what, i MUST slim down within the next 5-6 months ... before i step into sg!
but how to 减肥 !???? stop eating or what? lol.
in sg.. i always have my own techniques to slim down. but here.. I CANT!!!! HOW COME?
arghhh...... now i don't even dare to put myself on the weighing machine -.-
people always tell me that i'll eventually slim down when exams or proj deadlines are round the corner and i'll have no time to eat. But for me, it's the other way round! I tend to eat alot more when i'm stressed out!! esp chocolates n sweet stuff.. cos i believe that chocolates help me to generate more brain juices. hahaha..

effie's going back soon. omg so fast!... i wanna go back too! but.. yes, wait! wait till i lose at least 3 kg. lol.

oh yes, met effie just now. we had tim sum for lunch at box hill again! n went dfo to shop!! hahaha. i love dfo!! so many cheap stuff!! hahah. then for dinner, we had 大盘鸡 at a chinese restaurant around melb central (the same one that helen brought me to eat) . super spicy but very YUMMY!!! esp the noodles n the soup..! I was wondering if i can bring it on board the plane to sg next time. i wanna let everyone at home try it. haha. but i dont think it's possible though. chances of bringing churros back are much higher i reckon.

i'm thinking of getting a psp when i'm back in sg. or dsi/ ps3? i dunno la. see how. hahah. i just need to bring stuff back to melb.. so that i wont feel so bored. hahah. but for sure, i'll buy tonnes of vcds... enough to last for a year.. maybe? LOL.

btw.. niao, kelly, jiaxiang.. please update your blogs! now I've got nothing to read =.= haha.. n nic, revive your blog lehh. hahahha.

-.-

humans n their greed.
they are always never satisfied with what they have
when life gets boring, they want some excitement
when there 's too much excitement, they want space.

i'm reading new moon now. hahah.
effie lent it to me months ago.. but i only read it now -.-
hahahh..cos i dont have laptop. .. need to wait till helen or bill r not using theirs.. then i can use.
so i end up reading a book to kill my boredom. hahah.

so bored. dont feel like doing my proj. lol.

oh. one more thing before i forget.. i feel so uncomfortable if i dont know a person well, but yet he/she is calling me 'jo'. -.- is it just me being weird or what?
now my groupmate is calling me that. i hardly know him -.- i have the urge to tell him to stop calling me 'jo'. hahaha. but i dun know how to say it so that it wont sound offensive. lol. i know i m strange.. but i only give my family n good friends the privilege to call me that. HAHAHAHAHA

hahahah!!

哈哈!!!

i passed everything! nothing fantastic la. but at least i don't have to retake any subjects and waste unnecessary money! HAHA!!

ironically, my best subject is accounting. i got 72! hahah. weird.
the rest.. all 60+ haha.. pretty lousy.. but at least didnt fail.. so ok lor.....

though i know i didnt score well.. but still was quite satisfied for some reason. i think cos now my mentality has changed. i dont find the need to get good grades anymore.. i just wanna pass n get my degree. i know thinking like this is BAD.. well, i just gotta work harder next sem i guess. hahah..

YEAH!! i dont have to worry anymore!! i can play play play!!!!!!! haha.. actually not really.. cos i still have my winter semester. haha.

我好无聊啊！在用helen的电脑type chinese. i was so bored just now that i started playing with the chinese typing software.. n wrote on some of your fb's walls n commented on photos in chinese!! 哈哈！！paiseh la. LOL

oh yes, my laptop crashed till super jialat. its motherboard is faulty! and i gotta spend about 1000 bucks to get it replaced!!-.- this month is a super duper suay month! 破财until siao! dunno whats wrong man.

ok thats abt it now. HAHA. tata!!

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IMSCARED

TMRWTMRWTMRW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ITSFREAKINGMEOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHATIFWHATIFWHATIF......AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

IMUSTKEEPCALMNOMATTERWHAT.. IJUSTHOPEIWONTFAILMANYSUBJECTS.

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i think i cant live without internet. seriously, no way. i dunno why when i was young, i can go without internet for days. but now, just one day without it, it feels like crap.

maybe cos i dont have a tv here. so if there's no access to internet, i m totally doing nothing at home.

sch laptop sucks. -.- lag like dunno what. bill lent me his laptop.. haha.. cos he is going back to china for 3 days. lol.. i'm pretty lucky eh. but still, im gonna get my laptop fixed later. hopefully it can be fixed.. or else.. haiz..

results gonna be out. i'm super duper SCARED! i think i wont do well. i dreamt of my results when i was taking a nap just now.. n my parents, my sisters, my bros.. they were all there. what a dream man. i'm so worried. haiz. if i get all Ps, its no good. if i get 2 Ps, 2 Fs.. even worse. if I get 3 Ps, 1 F .. it's no good either. if i get 1 C, 1 P, 2 Fs.. =.= .. if i get 1C, 2Ps, 1 F..=.-.. if i get.. okay. i should just STOP for goodness sake.. this can go on forever man. wish me luck. good luck... i am still anxious, worried, scared, nervous etc. though. ................

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life's sucha bore. life's sucha pain. life's sucha crap.

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frankly speaking, i cant handle stress.. i feel like dying man. i hate suspense. ahhh... resultsssssssssssssssss