i dunno

From young it has always been like this.. going thru this vicious cycle again n again.
When you thought everything's back to normal, worse things come. Its always so problematic.
Sometimes I really envy other ppl.. maybe in their lives, they'll never encounter it.. cos its too dramatic. Maybe they'll only get to see it on tv.. n perhaps they wont even think that could happen in anyone's lives.
I dunno, call it mismanagement or whatever..its just so annoying to live in this kinda environment, where you constantly didnt have peace at heart. Sometimes I try to tell myself perhaps its a blessing in disguise, a test for us.. but i think this test has gone way overboard.. gone too far off our abilities to handle problems. I dunno.. I have so much to say, but i cant.