hot hot hot!

weather is freaking hot n dry today! 32 degrees! argh.
even after a shower, i still feel hot -.-
so irritating.
i feel like sleeping man.. though i have tonnes of stuff to do.. but just dun feel like doing.
i need to study soon! revision revision!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i need MOTIVATION!
i have been procrastinating for days/weeks/months -.-

i want winter back!

好奇怪

现在的我。。
不清楚自己的感觉
是否是爱?还是不愿意放手
我不想要这么累
可是他总是让我有这种感觉。。

可是有时看到他又觉得开心。。

好奇怪 好奇怪。 。

where??

where are all my blog fan-si???
no one reads my blog already -.- hahahah.. blame it on me for the lack of updates.

exams in 3 -4 weeks' time. die la die la. need to do alot alot of revision!!

about one more month to sg! hehe :)

life in melb has been colourful (like what jx said) .. but at times, there are still shades of grey n black n blue... just like everyone else. haha.
but the best thing here is FREEDOM. I don't think I'll get this much freedom when i go back. But I'll get lotsa company... hehe..

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Anyone wants to buy a polaroid? My friend is selling hers for $250, brand new, comes with packaging, manual and unopened strap. If you're interested, just leave a message on my tagboard..

a tired man is an angry man.

so irritated n easily agitated... arghh.

.moody

26102009

26.10.09 + 3 more days = 1 month :)

so fast. but am scared of the future. don't even wanna think.
i am afraid of changes. hopefully everything stays the same.

wish me luck!

polaroid..

he complained of neck pain.. n we remembered what happened in SHUTTER.
N we decided to take a pic using my polaroid...

luckily there wasnt anything. or else we would freak out.

we ended up taking quite a number of pics.. cos we think he looks good in the pics. haha.

eee.. this looks kinda scary..his eyes so weird.

broke

i'm freaking broke.
i overspent this month. but i have no idea where my money went to.
i havent been going shopping. i havent been going out.
must be food. n transport. -.-
sian. now i m planning to eat instant noodles everyday b4 i get my money next mth.
two n a half more wks to go. i gotta spend less!

mao's last dancer

went to watch this last week with michelle n avril.
it's quite a good movie.very touching. i heard it's a true story. n the person in the story is now in melb.

pics

nic told me to update my blog.....so here i am.. uploading pics. haha.



hehehe.. :)))


outdated pics........

shit on u

shit on u.
this only proves how eager u wish to walk away n leave me on the lurch.

fine. i dont wanna make myself look like i'm clinging on u like a koala bear.
fuck off if u want.

i wont be doing anything for u anymore..if u dun show that u appreciate it.
im just gonna live for myself for once.

i am so emotionally unstable now.
i'm afraid. i'm all alone.. after everything u did to me.
why am i handling everything on my own?
where r u when i need u the most?

that guy was right. i shouldnt be doing all this all by myself.
u should be responsible enough to spare a thought for me. but u never.

ok maybe u think i dont deserve it. since u dont like me, since i m fat n ugly. whatever.

if u think this so called 'ai de jiao yi'is a burden to u. fine. we can part ways..but under one condition.. that u leave this house n dont let me see u again.

dont let me hate u. n dont take advantage of my kindness.
one day i might just disappear. not like u care.

.....zzz

i woke up at 630am today to watch youtube.
cos the internet rate from 4am-9am is the fastest. haha.
so sleepy now.



zzz zzzzzz




.......

名为爱的交易?

名为爱的交易?

什么意思阿?

你依然把它当成交易吗?

我还以为我们之间已经不是那样了。。

。。。。

。。。。。。。。。

need my bf

i'm scared n insecure.
i need my bf.
not like he can do anything about it.
but at least he can make me forget about my troubles.
i feel safer when i'm with him...

我的路my way4

xiaozhou showed me this book. very meaningful.. read the following...

p.s. jx, i bet you'll like it.. your type of emo book.. haha.



adapted from - 我的路my way4

我们在静默的时间里，
隐藏着秘密的爱情。
也许， 幸福的标记是，
被爱过，或者认真去爱过。
---

其实，
在这个世界上，
曾经有一个人让我们笑， 让我们哭泣，
时间过去那些影子和笑容依然在我们心里，
即使没有得到，也是一种幸福了。
---

当我们还是孩子的时候，
就可以很勇敢，
无论将怎样被伤害，
都不会感到害怕。

因为那时候的我们，
不知道痛到底是一种怎样的感觉。

有一天被爱情伤害了，
痛得难以理解，
要用好长好长的时间，
才会慢慢变好。

然后爱情这样的事情就变得太严重，
任何时候，
只想远远地逃开。

我们生在宇宙中本来就是独立的个体，
没有爱情，
也不会让我们变得不完整。

勇敢的人们都很可爱，
那时候的生命可以很灿烂。

不顾一切的，
把属于自己的世界，
完全建筑在另外一个，
和自己一样渺小的生命上。
其实谁也承受不起，
不是吗。
只有等我们被伤害过后，
渐渐变得刀枪不入，
就会懂得去经营一份收支平衡的爱。

可那时候，
人又会怀念那个曾经不顾一切不怕伤害的自己，
那时候深深爱过的人，
留在记忆里。
而人的记忆里是会撒谎的，
在渐渐褪色的记忆里忘记那些疼痛和伤害。

在关于她的记忆里，
时间永远停在最美好的时刻，
那些伤痕的疼痛，
你将不再记得。
她会永远都灿烂地对你微笑，
甚至远远比真实更美丽，
即使她已经在现实里老去，
即使你再也不会爱现实里的她，
但深爱的人，
会成为你向往，
却再也无法回去的永无岛。
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boo! Us.. Webcam freaks!

finally tried mac's grand angus burger. i like the thick & juicy beef :)



n my fav honeycomb icecream..



and any honeycomb chocolates.. .. love it.

i still miss burger king's mushroom swiss :(
there is bk's subsidary's hungry jacks here. but hungry jacks doesnt sell mushroom swiss -.-

i want authentic singapore's hokkien mee, satay bee hoon, chomp chomp's stingray, selegie dou hua, jco or donut factory donuts..what else what else.. cant think of anymore.


........ finally, this explains why i've gained so much weight! HAHA!

我们这一家

net's freaking slow. cant even finish watching one episode -.- -.- -.-

melb show 09 & bill's bday

i know i havent been uploading pics here for awhile..

well welll.. finally.. here r some pics taken at royal melbourne show! went there 2 weeks ago with the singaporeans in my class..the 5 of us.. me, sophia, audrey, joanne, wee cheng ..

sophia, audrey n the dog

many other melb show pics.. but lazy to upload all...

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n this was bill's birthday.... michelle, avril, jason came over to our house to celebrate bill's birthday! jason went off earlier.. michelle n avril stayed till after midnight.. n shared a cab home..

南拳妈妈 - 下雨天

current fave... nice song!!



Lyric >> 南拳妈妈 ( Lara ) - 下雨天

下雨天
By : 南拳妈妈 ( Lara )

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沈默的场景 做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

〖在寂寞的雨夜里...Who's your miss?〗

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

会是怎样?

一天一天就这样过去了
距离29102009越来越近
知道将要失去了
知道一切将成为回忆

明年的今天会是怎样?
我们还会是很好的朋友吗?

这些日子过得很不一样
经历了好多风风雨雨
我从泪水与欢笑中成长了不少

flying

Yoohooo..

i'll be going back to sg on 1 dec 2009 at night.
then flying back to melb on 18 feb 2010.. hahaha..
will be in sg for months. hahah.

CYA SOON!! HAHAHHA..


to jx: can you put a tagboard in your blog? haha. i wanna comment..
to xy: cant celebrate ur birthday with u.. but can celebrate belated for u.. hope u dont mind k..

29102009

29102009.bf.