Nah

I've removed my tagboard for the time being, so that I can blog about anything without worrying so much about what others think. I like encouragements, but too much of it makes me feel weak.

Btw, this new blogskin is love at first sight. Cos I saw the holga (tho it's not red) and the polariod pics. Haha. And I think the ipod's super cool. That's why I'm reluctant to remove the music playlist. I shall just let it play. Don't like it? Feel free to pause/stop it.

Bye2008

Looks like everyone can't wait for 2008 to be over and gone, as I can see they've already summarized what they did in 2008 and listed out a fresh set of new year resolutions.

Well, 2008 has been a downfall. Everything come crashing down one by one, nothing seems to go right. Crappy year of chock-full problems, headaches, unhappiness, clashes, mistakes whatever.I know I've mentioned like a gazillion times, but I still wanna say it again: I HATE IT!! Now I realize even my favourite christmas season hasn't been that marvellous afterall. So what if we had great food on boxing day, it still ended with a shitty fullstop. You might think I'm just an ungrateful kid complaining about life.. yes, perhaps I am. But there're ppl around me who are the same. So does that even matter? I still believe.. what doesn't break us, makes us stronger. Or at least I'll be stronger.

Here's my new year resolutions.. I gotta make it happen
* study hard, attain good grades
* have more confidence in myself
* widen my social circle
* have more focus in work, do my best in everything
* be myself and ignore what others think

Will add on to this list when I think of more.

BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE2008! Quickly get lost!

p.s. I would rather tear out my brain stem, walk out into the middle of the nearest four-way intersection and skip rope with it than to go on living where I do now ~Squidward Tenticals, Spongebob Squarepants

It's boxing day!

HAPPY BOXING DAY!

we made shepherd's pie and baked salmon.

finger-licking awesome.. yum yum..

Merry Christmas!

Here's wishing all my friends a joyful, fun-filled Christmas! May the months and years ahead bring everyone more happiness and goodwill.

I like Christmas Eve midnight mass. It has been so long since I last stepped into a church. I think I should go there more often.

Christmas without snow, santa claus, jingle bells etc may seem kinda boring, but as long as you have your loved ones around you, it's more than enough. This month, I realized something.. Friends are important, but you should never neglect your family who has always been there for you.. in fact, they are so much more important. No matter how much you quarrel or argue with them, they will never turn their backs on you. There are times when those piling persistent problems are suffocating us, but we must understand that these are just obstacles and tests which we have to go through together. Well, hope everything will finds its way out. Wish all of us peace and joy.

People always says no one is perfect. But I'm starting to disagree. We may not have beautiful features, we may not be rich, or perhaps we may not possess certain good characteristics.. However, I think God made us perfect in our own unique way that couldn't be seen through the naked eye. All of us are made worthy to live on this earth, so we should treasure and appreciate every part of it.

Haha. Omg. I sounded like a priest! lol.. Ok, I should stop. Hahaha...

Christmas is still my favourite day of the year afterall!!

Xmas Eve

This is a must-watch.


I like Will Smith's movies. His movies are always so inspiring and meaningful. Seven pounds is sucha touching show. It might moved you to tears, really. It's not out in theatres yet.. but if you are like me, who is trying to save some pocket money and can't wait to watch it, visit this website: Seven Pounds

The pursuit of 'happyness' by Will Smith is great too.

It's almost 3 am.. I'm still not in bed yet. Haha. I think these days I'm down with insomnia.. lol.

Anyway, it's Christmas Eve today! Enjoy n have fun everyone! Happy Christmas in adv!=)

船到桥头自然直

2 more months. I haven't started planning yet. Even accomodation's not settled. Haha. I'm damn slow n retarded la. Aiya, don't care la.. as the saying goes '船到桥头自然直' . Now I don't even know if I'm going there in jan to scout for rentals or not. Sigh.. bahh.dunno la.

There's a good news. Jie's discharged!! Wahaha. Prayers answered eh? Haha. Thanks!

I've logos to do -.- But I've got no mood to do leh. Super sian. Done! Haha..

Btw, I think my friendster's infected with spamming viruses.

shoo

Looks like Jie's condition still isn't that good. Kidney infection is no joke man. Already hospitalized for 4 days, but there're still bacteria in her kidney. Her voice sounded so weak on the phone. Sigh..May god bless her with a speedy recovery. Hope she'll get on her feet, smiling n jumping before christmas. Pray hard that it wont be serious and no side effects pls, cos I really don't want anything to happen to her, esp at this point of time when everything's still in sucha mess. I've mentioned like a dozen times that this year's an ugly bad year. All of us had a hard time catching up with the swift changes, cracking our brains everyday, thinking of better solutions to clear the mess. But before we could clear one, there comes more n more junks, that leaves us so helpless and drained. I know our situation ain't the worst compared to others, but it's bad enough. Sometimes certain things can't be resolved no matter how hard we try. Misunderstandings keep accumulating till they choke them, but still, they're too stubborn to compromise or at least try to understand. Ok.. whatever. Enough of my ranting, cos no matter how many words I type now, nothing's gonna change. Shoo away 2008!

Gab&Xuan

I know this blog's getting pretty boring.. due to the lack of updates.

But all I can say is that, my life right now is filled with splashes of whites, blacks n greys, nothing very colourful at the moment. That was why I didnt blog.

But now I'll blog.. cos suddenly feel like it. Haha.

Anyway, stayed home all day just now, with my nephews running n playing around me.. n I had to entertain them -.- hahaha.

Ok la.. They're quite cute la.. But sometimes abit 'fan', esp when they're talking too much n I wanna be alone. Lol. Should've asked them to disturb my mum, then she'll be very occupied and wont have time think so much. Hahah.

I feel like eating mogu mogu's salmon teriyaki. If I feel like visiting my sis tomorrow, n if on the way there, I might drop by far east. Haha. Btw, yesterday I dreamt of loads of sashimi n salmon sushi. lol. Crappy dream again, I know.

p.s. I like the cool n cold self when I'm at home, cos I know I'm in control n not doing anything against my will. I hate the uncool n compromising self when I'm outside, cos I know I'm definitely not in control and even if I don't like it, I'll just give in. N if I don't, I'll feel guilty for letting others down n will be conscious about how others look at me. Argh. I hate geminis, whats with my double personalities? Can't I be cool n even cooler all the time? But when I think of it now, it won't work.. cos I don't think I'll ever make any friends given that cool but super 'gu pi' attitude when I'm at home. However, right now, I just want to live for myself n not anyone else, or at least for once. I don't wanna try to be nice already, it's too much of a chore for me, cos it doesn't come naturally from within. So does that mean that I've been acting for the past 20 yrs? Hmm.. maybe yes, maybe no? I dunno? But all I know is that thru those past years of pleasing others, I've lost my dignity, my pride n all that I've struggled to uphold. Maybe I've exaggerated, but.. that's exactly how I feel. I'm not always right, but I know I like to believe in my own thoughts n feelings. Now, to me, perhaps the priority is not about being right or wrong, nice or bad anymore, it's about being real, who I truly am n be happy about it. Since nobody's perfect in the world, why do I care so much about what others think? I should stop being what others want me to be or live by anyone's expectations anymore.

argh 2008

2008 is really a bad year. My 2nd sis's hospitalized for the first time ever. Eh.. high in white blood cells? normal's 11, hers 17? what urinal infection?.. All these medical terms are so alien to me and it's making me very worried. I hope it's nothing serious, pray hard that she'll be fine.

But I think she's so cool. She drove to the hospital by herself, and she only had me for company. My parents didn't even know. I'll tell them later in the afternoon so as not to spoil their wedding anniversary mood. I bet they'll be super shocked.

Haiz. What a year.. I kinda detest 2008. I don't like to go to hospital at all, but this year I guess I broke my record. So ppl, pls take care of yourselves, stay healthy, drink alot of water, eat more fruits... don't fall sick, it's scary.

This year's xmas is like the worst. I'm totally not in the mood for it, not feeling particularly excited like how I used to feel. Argh.. damn year.. spoil my favourite festive mood!!

Ok. Gtg.. tata!

趁早

I like 蕭敬騰's version..


张宇-趁早

到后来才发现爱你是一种习惯
我学会和你说一样的谎
你总是要我在你身旁
说幸福该是什么模样
你给我的天堂 其实是一片荒凉
要是我早可以和你一刀两断
我们就不必在爱里勉强
可是我真的不够勇敢
总为你忐忑 为你心软
毕竟相爱一场
不要谁心里带着伤
*
我可以永远笑着扮演你的配角
在你的背后自己煎熬
如果你不想要 想退出要趁早
我没有非要一起到老
我可以不问感觉继续为爱讨好
冷眼的看着你的骄傲
若有情太难了 想别恋要趁早
就算迷恋你的拥抱
忘了就好

要是我早可以和你一刀两断
我们就不必在爱里勉强
可是我真的不够勇敢
总为你忐忑 为你心软
毕竟相爱一场
不要谁心里带着伤
*
我可以永远笑着扮演你的配角
在你的背后自己煎熬
如果你不想要 想退出要趁早
我没有非要一起到老
我可以不问感觉继续为爱讨好
冷眼的看着你的骄傲
若有情太难了 想别恋要趁早
就算迷恋你的拥抱
忘了就好

爱已至此怎样的说法 都能成为理由
我在这样的爱情里看见的
是我们的软弱
*


Haha. I made this into a music blog. Have been listening to tonnes of songs you see.

Nice

A random nice song I found on youtube...


楊宗緯：重來好不好

夜 一屋子的颓废
思念 不放手让我睡
你最喜欢听的 爵士音乐
慵懒的 忧伤的 杂念

*
而我 站在照片的左边
快乐 离我越来越远
每年这个季节 特别有感觉
我好想你 想再见你一面

让我们重来好不好
再一次温暖的拥抱
求时间停在这一秒
倾听你的耳语心跳

许多事曾经是煎熬
回头看突然都明了
用一切
换你的微笑
*

Repeat *

就像在歌的转折
总有一些期待
真心才能诠释的爱

我们重来好不好
再一次温暖的拥抱
求时间停在这一秒
倾听你的耳语心跳

许多事曾经是煎熬
回头看突然都明了
用一切
换你的微笑

If you have this song, send me pls. Thanks in adv.

Watch

Impressive 超級星光大道 performances

Bruce Lee

Interesting and inspiring Bruce Lee's interview and documentary. He's sucha philosophical, confident and expressive person, who has so much focus in life.

Watch this Bruce Lee Interview on the Pierre Berton Show:


And..
this too. Bruce Lee "Famous Families" Documentary

If you try to remember, you'll lose. Empty your mind. Be formless, be shapeless, like water. You put water into a cup, it becomes the cup. Put it into a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Water can flow, or creep, or drip, or crash. Be water, my friend - Bruce Lee

Rin on the rox

Watch this. They are good.

Sayonara

Life's short. Within a year, both of them are gone.

Those flashbacks n memories somehow seems so much like yesterday.

I dunno why.. Last few days, I was feeling pretty alright at ah gong's wake. But today, after we return from the crematorium, it just dawn upon me that he's no longer here with us. We can't see him anymore. I wonder where is he now? Hope he's happier up there.

Gong, sayonara.

3Dec08

Ironically, I wasnt that upset, maybe I was already mentally prepared for months. I knew it was just a matter of time.

He smiled at us when he saw us in the afternoon. He shook hands with us. He could see, but couldn't talk.

It's a pity my parents didn't get to see him for the last time. Cos they're in sz. Will be flying back tmrw.

This year is a bad year. Twice in a year - jan & dec. What a bad start n ending to 2008. Looking forward to 2009, hope it'll be a much better year ahead.

May god bless him. He can finally see her in heaven.

Goodbye gong, rest in peace.

Updates updates!

Updates.

Sat - Went to Jie's company to help her out with collages.

Sun - I was an impatient and angry freak that day. Cos Jie's always so damn slow. Printed the collages at Alvin's shop. Then, me n jie had selegie dou hua.

Mon - Watched 2 dvds: 'Wanted' & 'The Other Bolelyn Girl'. I prefer 'The Other Bolelyn Girl' though. Very interesting historical kinda story.

Today - A trip to NTU! 2 hrs ride from my home you know. Haha. Met up with tian n eileen. We had steamboat. Hahah. N we went to tian's hostel room to have a look. Quite nice what. Just add in another electric fan, and everything will be a little more perfect.

This is for lunch.

Cam-whoring while waiting for eileen.

Finally, eileen joined us n on the way to hall 2 canteen, larry the fat cat was stalking tian. Cos he was desperate for food. lol. Steamboat. Not fantastic, but not bad for sch's standard. I like the veges more.

Hahah. Thats all. Good to catch up. lol. Shall org kbox soon eh?

Oh. Btw, my visa has been approved. Can start packing my luggage already. Haha.

P.S. 'Be Yourself' sounded so cliche yet original on its own. It takes so much to truly understand its meaning. If I were to put it in another way, it is to be in control of your life. Take charge of it and never blend yourself into others just to look as though you're the right fit. There is an unique definition to every self of its kind. Don't lose yourself and others won't lose you. I think I'm starting to understand that.