怎么了

突然觉得时间过的好慢。。
原来等待是那么漫长的。。。
我不想和你在一起，却又不想离开你。。
我希望你能一直在我的身边呆着。。
可是我又为什么不停地叫你搬。。
我是口是心非吧。。。。
我到底怎么了

如果。。

如果我的人生是一本一百页的书
我要从第一百页看起
我想知道我故事的结局是否精彩，是否值得一看
我想知道之前和现在的我做了对或错的选择，是否浪费了不少时间和精力在不必要的人和事上
我想看看我成长的变化， 所带来的所有快乐与忧愁
我想体会那种回忆已经淡化的感觉，是否会觉得一切都无所谓了
我想知道在我的人生中， 到底有几个人会一直陪我到最后

我现在好像知道我的未来将会是怎样。。

dad n fb

guess what?
my dad has facebook now..
i think i'm gonna be very inactive in facebook from today onwards. HAHA.

here's the conversation with my sis:

alvee: jonna nothing wrong what
alvee: jonna add then add lor..
alvee: jonna but i think u can put him as "limted"
jonna: alvee hahaha
alvee: jonna change some settings so that he cant see like status updates etc
alvee: jonna lol
jonna: alvee HAHA
jonna: alvee i was thinking.. if he added u
jonna: alvee even worse
alvee: jonna i better take all my drinking pics out
jonna: alvee hahahahah
alvee: jonna and my wall...
alvee: jonna lol
jonna: alvee HAHA
alvee: jonna he hasnt added me
alvee: jonna hee..
alvee: jonna good good
jonna: alvee hahahah
jonna: alvee now u still have time to sort out ur pics
jonna: alvee i will recommend u as his friend
jonna: alvee ahahahahha

i dont like facebook anymore. it's too too too commercialized!!!!

loser

I'm such a loser I have no control over my life and I blame others for my failures and mistakes
I give people hell of a time just to make myself feel better
but you know what? I ain't feeling any better. In fact, I feel so much worse
I keep saying others are being selfish. But actually I'm the self-centered one.
I only think of myself and thought that the whole world is evolving just for me
I wanna act like I'm a nice person, but I am not. cos obviously that's not in my nature
I'm being childish. I haven't grow up. I don't know when I'll ever grow up.
I'm making everyone unhappy because of my childishness.
I think that this world is shit. But that's because I made it shit.

傀儡

我觉得我好失败

我永远只是爱情的傀儡

经历过又没有因此变聪明一些

我是猪吧

我从来没有为自己活过

总是想着别人会怎样想 但是我得到了什么

我不是在要求回报

只是希望别人在做任何事情之前能站在我的立场想一想

你可以把我当成傻瓜 可是不要抢走我的尊严

请不要再对我那么残忍 你想怎样都行 不要让我知道就好

搬走了 一切会恢复正常

到时候 我们也就没有理由再联络了

可是这段时间我还是会对你一样 就当作是最后一次的祝福吧

其实我也很累了

我不想再相信任何人了

傀儡

我觉得我好失败
我永远只是个傀儡
总是想着别人会怎样想 但是我得到了什么
我不是在要求回报
只是希望别人在做任何事情之前能站在我的立场想一想
你可以把我当成傻瓜 可是不要抢走我的尊严
你想怎样都行 不要让我知道就好

bored! bored!

I'm in school library now!
Had a 1 hour lecture from 9.30am to 10.30 am just now. My next class is at 2.30 pm, in 35 mins time.
Actually wanted to skip that lecture in the morning. But i heard that attendance will be taken.. so i came. But in the end, there wasn't any attendance taken -.- wth. I think the lecturer only wanted to lure everyone to the lecture.. -.-
so i have been staying in the library most of the time.. doing research for proj, fb, blog-hopping etc.. from 10.30am till now.. i'm so bored! so bored! so bored!
btw, i bought a keyboard (with stand n chair included) for only 79bucks at target store! so cheap!! xz and i have been practising "End Theme" from an anime- 5 centimeters. so fun! haha.
n i have been watching prison break.. started from season 4.. then went on to watch from season 1.. haha. I like wentworth miller! so shuai n cool! but heard he's gay -.-
ok. thats it for now. tata!

happy!!

im so happy. i thought im gonna fail my commercial law test.. cos it was hard! multi-choice questions with all the answers that are so similar! I was practically guessing all the way! N i passed! got 14/20 for guessing!! hahaha. so lucky!! :D
HAPPY HAPPY!!!!:)))

Thanks!!!!!!!!

HAHA! Thanks everyone once again!! :D



I really want those donuts! Send me some.. haha. kidding la.
jx.. u abit 'zi high' hor? hahahahahha...

N thanks nic for the surprise gifts!! So gan dong!! :D Thank you and ed so (x 1000000000000000000) much!!!!!!!

:))

i wanna

i wanna lie down and stare at the sky whole day long with an empty mind.
i wanna daydream and let time kills itself.
i wanna be alone for once.
i wanna lock my mind, heart and soul and become a vegetable for one day.
i wanna reset. i wanna hibernate. i wanna take a breather.
i wanna live for no one but myself.